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Deviation Actions

okumurachanchan

Published: Jan 6, 2015

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あなたはモンスターです
「 you are a monster 」

Outside, it was already dark.

How long had it been since [Name] noticed how strange Kaneki had been acting? He kept blinking furiously, glancing around the almost empty Anteiku with troubled eyes, she noticed. His usual pale face was flushed and bullets of sweat ran down his forehead. He looked as if he was on the verge fainting.

"Kaneki, are you okay?" The female tapped his shoulder.

He looked up at her from across the table and smiled faintly. "O-Of course I'm fine."

"Are you sick?"

Not really.

He hadn't eaten in about two weeks. Specifically human. He had been 'dieting' for her sake. He was afraid that he would start reeking of human flesh if he kept feasting. What if he got caught by the CCG, and [Name] found out he was a ghoul? He couldn't bear the look of terror on her face if she found out. He wouldn't have the privilege to hear her sweet voice again.

"...Um...Kaneki...?" [Name] spoke up.

"A-Ah, yes?"

"This is so soon, but I really have to get to class. I'm sorry." She scratched her cheek sheepishly, a blush surfacing her soft features.

Kaneki blinked. "O-Oh, it's n-nothing. I...I totally understand."

[Name] shoved her things into her backpack and stood up, planting a kiss to his cheek and bidding goodbye to everyone else. But, just as she was about to make her way out, Kaneki gently pulled her arm and turned her around to face him, his face filled with that usual innocence and naivety.

The girl blushed. "...Yes?"

"Have you ever been so afraid, as if someone is always watching you?" he whispered faintly.

"E-Eh? What are you talking about?"

"I'm afraid."

He felt just a bit better, like a giant weight had been lifted from his chest. When his girlfriend hugged him next, he couldn't form any words at the small gesture. He felt reassured that she would never leave him. But, as he sniffed in her scent, a new fear crawled within him. He wanted to eat her.

It made his stomach churn a bit. What did they call this feeling again?

Heartbreak or hunger?

"I'll walk you, it's close by," he muttered with a shy smile.

The college student looked at him with bright eyes, causing him to feel uneasy. For what reason he didn't know why. It was supposed to be a regular night. Walking with her to the university (he used to attend), then walking back to the small cafe.

But, tonight, Kaneki wanted to take a shorter route as he timidly took her hand in his and squeezed it. Again, his body and mind were doing things on his own. He was awake and aware of his surroundings, but not completely there.

Eat her. She's your dinner.

When the couple made it to a dead end, it fell silent. The black haired ghoul could feel the hammering of [Name]'s heart all the way to the end of her much smaller fingertips. He knew one reason was because they were in love. And the other reason; she was afraid of the dark. Particularly tonight's darkness.

"...Kaneki...?"

He looked at her with a wry smile. "I'm fine..."

"Yeah, but where are we? It's a dead end, Kaneki."

Dead end? Of course not.

[Name] let go of his hand for a brief moment, then turned on her heel. "Let's go back the other way."

He snapped back to his usual self for a brief second.

"A-Ah, you're right. I'm sorry."

He followed her for a few steps.

But, suddenly there was a loud clang and then followed a thump.

Then a relative hush.

The sound of dripping liquid and gnawing.

There was blood all over his pale hands and clothing. The metallic smell stung his nose and taste buds. With wide eyes he looked around, the limp figure near a dumpster catching his attention. What the hell was he doing in a dark alleyway with a limp body?

He couldn't remember anything from a few minutes prior.

Kaneki hesitated for a moment, then crawled toward the body. He took note of their dislocated limbs and a rather large gash across their upper body, but he couldn't see their face. He noticed that the gray hoodie and backpack was all too familiar, but he shrugged it off because it couldn't possibly be who he thought it was.

He finally pushed aside the hair in their face, and held in the urge to vomit and cry.

"...[Name]...?" he whispered hoarsely.

The nineteen year old pulled her head into his lap, staring at her stained features in disbelief. He felt anywhere on her cold frame for a pulse but retracted his hands when he realized what he had done. What he had done to his dear [Name].

He was finally what he dreaded the most.

A killer.

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~~my kokoro~~ hurts for kaneki
idk why i even wrote this piece of sadness man
this is not really rated m bc there is barely any reference of violence
~~so pls be nice and don't report me since im just a baby????~~
all i feel like is writing angst now like wtf
I NEED HELP MAN.